Its been dead for so long. i apologise.
tomorrow. THE DAY. for us to step down after 4 years of being a NC chorister. i never thought this day would arrive. but it did. to be honest, i did not wanted to join choir in the first place. i was hating choir at the start. hating the hod at that time, putting me in choir. but i realise it wasn't as bad as i thought it was. from hating it to loving it. this 4 years was an eye-opener for me. seriously after going through many performances and competitions with this choir, I've learnt a lot. i found myself to be more mature in thinking. although sometimes i might still be lame, i really learnt a lot. in fact turning back, i would like to thank the hod then. Not because I've been selected as the president so I'm crapping all the good words here, but from the bottom of my heart, the times spent in NC Chorale really etched in my mind and they would never e erased of. From the days training the clapping for Jentend, singing pu die in the super natural ji-na-pok sound, and putting in feelings for princess mononokei, getting gold of syf 2007, genting trip, playing in the night of the theme park together with friends, preventing against the gangsters across our bedrooms, eating the buffet for breakfast, attending workshops, shopping, til the public concert in 2008, our own "BECAUSE WE SING CONCERT" @ Grassroots, the super crazy xmas camp, til the hard training of turot, super weird singing of white horses, learning to put feelings in for kami, getting another gold in 2009, crap singing during the saf day til now. How many days it has been? i'm really gonna miss the times together girls. all the singing and laughter.
though i know that our disciplined and attitude of the choir really dropped a lot since don't know when and sucks at the moment and I'm really at a loss of what to do, i really treasure the moments that I've spent there. tomorrow. is THE DAY. where we bid farewell. after tomorrow, there won't be practices til another investiture where i officially hand over the choir to the next batch. i want to say sorry to those i have been fierce with. although i think that you deserved to be scolded because you were behaving inappropriately and those who have been helping in in admin stuff and all the events. being the p is stressful, especially when there is so many events coming up at one go. thanks for all your support and encouragement that spur me on. i remember i broke down many times because of the stress, because of our lousiness and the most recent one was just yesterday because i don't know what to do with you girls because performance was in two days time and we still sucked. but today, miraculously, we were quite ok. whats wrong choir? when can we stop giving ms yin heart attacks? this has been continued from 2008 til now. i really don't know how to handle such a crazy bunch. i really thought of leaving all of you and don't care on how to improve. but i can't. i realise i don't have the heart to. i really don't know why. but i guess this have proven to me that i still love this choir very much. but I'm at wits end already. its up to the next batch to help me out. I'm sorry seniors. I'm sorry ms yin. and to the teacher ics that i wasn't able to bring up the choir and cause it to slack. i think i've failed and was a disappointment :( but anyways, no matter how well we fair tomorrow, i bet i would be in tears either in joy or sorrow. so why not just enjoy the limelight. enjoy the stage. enjoy the last performance with the chorale together?
NC CHORALE ALL THE WAY! JIAYOUS!

THANKS TO ALL WHO GAVE ME A PRESENT FOR VALENTINES.
I LOVE YOU ALL!! (as a friend of course ;D)

hellos hellos~ kaes i know im supposed to sleep but just let me revive my blog before its dead.
its inauspicious you know.. hahas~

sorry to those i sms-ed today and i sounded super rude. am super pissed off with some people asking me some silly questions which made my blood boil. moreover, i was filing!! amaths was like a whole pile -.- yes, i admit i didnt finish my hw. AGAIN. but, well, the teachers dont collect or go through anyways.. so.. might as well.. hahas~

hmm, choir is cancelled for tmr. because of sports heats. luckily i go find ms toh, because it turned out that i dont need to go for tomorrow's rehearsal. but alot of people will miss practice though. attendance low, ms yin unhappy. might as well.. hahas~

i going bonkers with endless house visits. 1 day can have up to 3. angbao this year very little but compared to a few of the others considered a lot so i should not complain.. this year i sot sot de.. took like sooooooooooooo many pics on the 30th night and the 1st day of new year. all uploaded on fb. really crazy sia.. LOL. but i no new year mood til now, as in even during the 1st day~ maybe cause im sick.. have been coughing for 2 weeks.. finally recovering by a little tiny weeny bit.. thanks to the recommendations of the yu yan seng. it really helps. after trying all sorts of methods =.= hahas.. every weekend now is house visits house visits and more house visits.. felt very extra.. kaes, i mean these years.. this few years i feel out of place.. grown ups are in their world.. talking about stuff i dont understand, children are laughing and playing things ridiculously.. then us the not here not there ones just sit there and stare into blank space~ but this year i made my 1st step to pai kia-ness xD illegal gambling.. LOL. earned extra $$ lehs.. but i feel weird.. hahas~



all ended with haha-ness.. so i hope everyone can xiao kou chang kai kaes..
may everyone achieve what they want in this year!

♥ leona

thanks for the tag joyce & wanling!
2 more days to chinese new year le~ its a blink of an eye and i am going to be 16.
so fast la.. we are sec 4s already. seniors like jessica also graduated le.. we have no more seniors le :( well, suddenly mention jessica cause she came back on mon to visit us then wed to tell us about JC life. really missed the times when seniors are around...
so, well, i've decided to go poly, though i have not discussed with my parents.. aiming for 11<.. i hope~ dropped hcl le.. its been a month so no point appealing anymore. have been doing well in it too, so i am contented.

tomorrow is BBQ day for 4C. wish it to be successful.. hope everything runs on smoothly..
looking forward to it, but not actually on second thoughts.

i dont know why i have no mood for celebrations these days.. i felt so angry about having celebrations. i mean why must we do the traditions for the certain events? this was what i thought when i quarreled with my family. of course i do know that we have to follow the elderly's tradition and ya, but it was a moment of childishness and anger la..

recently am sick.. coughing my lungs out.. until my voice changed too.. see the doctor and spent $42. being nagged by mom. please? as if i wanted to get sick. its so xin ku cans? sigh :(

nothing much that happen these days, just that i realise, sec 4 is really a tough period, emotionally. you really need your friends to be there to pull you up. to support you and encourage you. i might not have shown but i broke down quite a few times le. but its over. and when i recall it, it seems a bit ridiculous. hahas.. so i guess its true that they say sec 4 shapes up your mentality. it really turns you mature and change your thinking.

learning to be a senior is not easy. to manage a group is not an easy feat either. there will always be times when you would want to give up. but i believe in strong willpower. though i may not have it, i will push myself to do it. i believe after this year of tough time, the Leona you know might be a different one.

i hope i do not anger or sadden anyone during this period of time as i am seriously not sure of how to handle my emotions at times. i feel more pekchek than usual and am easily irritated by certain things that caused me to be irrational. please pardon me if i have do something that is unreasonable this period of time. i am reflecting and hoping to change my bad ways. so do tell me when i am wrong. i will think about it. although my reaction might be ridiculous when you first tell me.

wow, i wrote so much le? and i didnt touch any of the presents or homework.. ahhh!!! and i had to wake up tomorrow at 5.30am to go take the mango pudding~ gosh.. i better run.. byex!! oh and the photos i promised will be at a later time kaes.. so sorry.. but i think no one wanna see anyways, so no point posting it.. just to let you know i had a fun time. thanks for wasting your time to look at my post.

Hi all!! Thanks for all your tags.
Have been leaving this blog for two months le. so sorry..
sec 4 life is hectic mans! almost everyday test and piles of homework..
i chose today to write because i think that its a good date..
hahas! abit lame la, but ya, very nice..

Thanks for all the concern you gave me. Korea was super fun and the last few days that i went to Genting with Liyun was superb too. This holiday is a very enjoyable one and i hope to have another one during this year end too.. hope my wish come true ;D

anyways, since picture speaks a thousand words, i shall show you the photos i took ;DD
but now theres sth wrong so i upload another time kaes :(
wishing all of you an early HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

thanks for all the tags.
in fact, im shocked that there are people who tagged. hahas!
tags replied at respective blogs :D
super brief post cuz im having a stomachache.
i know i super lag, now then come blog.
camp over le.. but i wish i can go again. it was very fun!
i want go in-line skate with my friends!! hahas...
feel like going next year but think will be very extra o.o hahas
missed choir, cuz of my packing.. sorry and thanks shuwei!!
going korea tmr night. will miss all of euu here..
very scared i cant catch up..
ystd went sm house. super paiisehh! she not even awake yet!! hahas
then watch 2012 then watch a lot a lot things then we watched HAI PAI TIAN XING
gawd. im so into that show now.. hahas..
we ate a pizza each, crazy right?
and ice-cream then dinner.. oh i ate a cup of yogurt when she was eating her breakfast.
1st time. super weird, but sour so nice. hahas.
im crazy, seriously.
type post til liddat xD
psps.. not in the mood + stomach ache.. haix..
off to the toilet! byex.