i dont know why do i have the urge to post since nothing much have happened. i guess its the influence of reading the others blogs. been to peoples blog today and was very shocked to see some of their posts. i felt so.. weird.. i mean confused of my feelings. because they don't seem what they seem to be.. its the second last day of official school. because tomorrow will be the last day as we will get back our report book and the upcoming two weeks will be our extended programme. i dont know why i have a bad feeling. i feel so NOT uptight about the upcoming Os. i dont know why. and i still cant find my passion for moving on. how? i really felt like giving up everything. wishing 1jan2010 will be the end of the world. but at the same time, i felt so unwilling to let go.. unwillingly to give up all that i have after so many years of education etc. what is happening to me mans?? all the emotions of leaving one another is back to me. again.
i guess watching last the eps of the first seasons and the last of mofanbangbangtang wasnt such a good idea. hahas. cause i cried like mad while watching them cry. it reminds me of my friends leaving me. how i wish friendships really do never end. as in keep all our friendships as close as possible and never let go. but its like the theory of the kite. when you pull it too tightly, it will snap and lose you forever. but letting myself lose and cry out subconciously, is actually a good thing. all the bad feelings and those that i kept in my mind and heart seemed to flow away with the tears so i was glad ;)
memories flash back when i watch them giving their closure speech. all that they have been through together like what our class have been through together. i bet next year will be a total different year for all of us. a difficult one. and if we are gonna remain the status quo, i guess it wont be of much help to our results. cause seriously speaking, i dont like my class the way it is now. how i admire people who have super good classes. i shallnt name who but i really admire them. a united class is a memorable one. i dont know what am i thinking or saying oe even what am i doing now cause i feel so giddy. deep in thoughts of the class. i will miss the good old times. because i believe next year would be a rough patch and i hope our friendship never ends.
i have missed.. i am missing.. i will be missing..
