shut up.

LAST performance.

2010-04-09T21:57:00.004+08:00

Its been dead for so long. i apologise.
tomorrow. THE DAY. for us to step down after 4 years of being a NC chorister. i never thought this day would arrive. but it did. to be honest, i did not wanted to join choir in the first place. i was hating choir at the start. hating the hod at that time, putting me in choir. but i realise it wasn't as bad as i thought it was. from hating it to loving it. this 4 years was an eye-opener for me. seriously after going through many performances and competitions with this choir, I've learnt a lot. i found myself to be more mature in thinking. although sometimes i might still be lame, i really learnt a lot. in fact turning back, i would like to thank the hod then. Not because I've been selected as the president so I'm crapping all the good words here, but from the bottom of my heart, the times spent in NC Chorale really etched in my mind and they would never e erased of. From the days training the clapping for Jentend, singing pu die in the super natural ji-na-pok sound, and putting in feelings for princess mononokei, getting gold of syf 2007, genting trip, playing in the night of the theme park together with friends, preventing against the gangsters across our bedrooms, eating the buffet for breakfast, attending workshops, shopping, til the public concert in 2008, our own "BECAUSE WE SING CONCERT" @ Grassroots, the super crazy xmas camp, til the hard training of turot, super weird singing of white horses, learning to put feelings in for kami, getting another gold in 2009, crap singing during the saf day til now. How many days it has been? i'm really gonna miss the times together girls. all the singing and laughter.
though i know that our disciplined and attitude of the choir really dropped a lot since don't know when and sucks at the moment and I'm really at a loss of what to do, i really treasure the moments that I've spent there. tomorrow. is THE DAY. where we bid farewell. after tomorrow, there won't be practices til another investiture where i officially hand over the choir to the next batch. i want to say sorry to those i have been fierce with. although i think that you deserved to be scolded because you were behaving inappropriately and those who have been helping in in admin stuff and all the events. being the p is stressful, especially when there is so many events coming up at one go. thanks for all your support and encouragement that spur me on. i remember i broke down many times because of the stress, because of our lousiness and the most recent one was just yesterday because i don't know what to do with you girls because performance was in two days time and we still sucked. but today, miraculously, we were quite ok. whats wrong choir? when can we stop giving ms yin heart attacks? this has been continued from 2008 til now. i really don't know how to handle such a crazy bunch. i really thought of leaving all of you and don't care on how to improve. but i can't. i realise i don't have the heart to. i really don't know why. but i guess this have proven to me that i still love this choir very much. but I'm at wits end already. its up to the next batch to help me out. I'm sorry seniors. I'm sorry ms yin. and to the teacher ics that i wasn't able to bring up the choir and cause it to slack. i think i've failed and was a disappointment :( but anyways, no matter how well we fair tomorrow, i bet i would be in tears either in joy or sorrow. so why not just enjoy the limelight. enjoy the stage. enjoy the last performance with the chorale together?
NC CHORALE ALL THE WAY! JIAYOUS!

LEONA ♥ NC CHORALE

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2010-02-18T22:20:00.002+08:00

THANKS TO ALL WHO GAVE ME A PRESENT FOR VALENTINES.
I LOVE YOU ALL!! (as a friend of course ;D)

hellos hellos~ kaes i know im supposed to sleep but just let me revive my blog before its dead.
its inauspicious you know.. hahas~

sorry to those i sms-ed today and i sounded super rude. am super pissed off with some people asking me some silly questions which made my blood boil. moreover, i was filing!! amaths was like a whole pile -.- yes, i admit i didnt finish my hw. AGAIN. but, well, the teachers dont collect or go through anyways.. so.. might as well.. hahas~

hmm, choir is cancelled for tmr. because of sports heats. luckily i go find ms toh, because it turned out that i dont need to go for tomorrow's rehearsal. but alot of people will miss practice though. attendance low, ms yin unhappy. might as well.. hahas~

i going bonkers with endless house visits. 1 day can have up to 3. angbao this year very little but compared to a few of the others considered a lot so i should not complain.. this year i sot sot de.. took like sooooooooooooo many pics on the 30th night and the 1st day of new year. all uploaded on fb. really crazy sia.. LOL. but i no new year mood til now, as in even during the 1st day~ maybe cause im sick.. have been coughing for 2 weeks.. finally recovering by a little tiny weeny bit.. thanks to the recommendations of the yu yan seng. it really helps. after trying all sorts of methods =.= hahas.. every weekend now is house visits house visits and more house visits.. felt very extra.. kaes, i mean these years.. this few years i feel out of place.. grown ups are in their world.. talking about stuff i dont understand, children are laughing and playing things ridiculously.. then us the not here not there ones just sit there and stare into blank space~ but this year i made my 1st step to pai kia-ness xD illegal gambling.. LOL. earned extra $$ lehs.. but i feel weird.. hahas~

all ended with haha-ness.. so i hope everyone can xiao kou chang kai kaes..
may everyone achieve what they want in this year!

♥ leona

2010-02-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EARLY CNY!!

MAY ALL OF YOU SCORE WELL IN EXAMS AND Os!!

thanks for the tag joyce & wanling!
2 more days to chinese new year le~ its a blink of an eye and i am going to be 16.
so fast la.. we are sec 4s already. seniors like jessica also graduated le.. we have no more seniors le :( well, suddenly mention jessica cause she came back on mon to visit us then wed to tell us about JC life. really missed the times when seniors are around...
so, well, i've decided to go poly, though i have not discussed with my parents.. aiming for 11<.. i hope~ dropped hcl le.. its been a month so no point appealing anymore. have been doing well in it too, so i am contented.

tomorrow is BBQ day for 4C. wish it to be successful.. hope everything runs on smoothly..
looking forward to it, but not actually on second thoughts.

i dont know why i have no mood for celebrations these days.. i felt so angry about having celebrations. i mean why must we do the traditions for the certain events? this was what i thought when i quarreled with my family. of course i do know that we have to follow the elderly's tradition and ya, but it was a moment of childishness and anger la..

recently am sick.. coughing my lungs out.. until my voice changed too.. see the doctor and spent $42. being nagged by mom. please? as if i wanted to get sick. its so xin ku cans? sigh :(

nothing much that happen these days, just that i realise, sec 4 is really a tough period, emotionally. you really need your friends to be there to pull you up. to support you and encourage you. i might not have shown but i broke down quite a few times le. but its over. and when i recall it, it seems a bit ridiculous. hahas.. so i guess its true that they say sec 4 shapes up your mentality. it really turns you mature and change your thinking.

learning to be a senior is not easy. to manage a group is not an easy feat either. there will always be times when you would want to give up. but i believe in strong willpower. though i may not have it, i will push myself to do it. i believe after this year of tough time, the Leona you know might be a different one.

i hope i do not anger or sadden anyone during this period of time as i am seriously not sure of how to handle my emotions at times. i feel more pekchek than usual and am easily irritated by certain things that caused me to be irrational. please pardon me if i have do something that is unreasonable this period of time. i am reflecting and hoping to change my bad ways. so do tell me when i am wrong. i will think about it. although my reaction might be ridiculous when you first tell me.

wow, i wrote so much le? and i didnt touch any of the presents or homework.. ahhh!!! and i had to wake up tomorrow at 5.30am to go take the mango pudding~ gosh.. i better run.. byex!! oh and the photos i promised will be at a later time kaes.. so sorry.. but i think no one wanna see anyways, so no point posting it.. just to let you know i had a fun time. thanks for wasting your time to look at my post.

HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2010-02-01T21:53:00.001+08:00

Hi all!! Thanks for all your tags.
Have been leaving this blog for two months le. so sorry..
sec 4 life is hectic mans! almost everyday test and piles of homework..
i chose today to write because i think that its a good date..
hahas! abit lame la, but ya, very nice..

Thanks for all the concern you gave me. Korea was super fun and the last few days that i went to Genting with Liyun was superb too. This holiday is a very enjoyable one and i hope to have another one during this year end too.. hope my wish come true ;D

anyways, since picture speaks a thousand words, i shall show you the photos i took ;DD
but now theres sth wrong so i upload another time kaes :(
wishing all of you an early HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2009-12-02T12:33:00.000+08:00

thanks for all the tags.
in fact, im shocked that there are people who tagged. hahas!
tags replied at respective blogs :D
super brief post cuz im having a stomachache.
i know i super lag, now then come blog.
camp over le.. but i wish i can go again. it was very fun!
i want go in-line skate with my friends!! hahas...
feel like going next year but think will be very extra o.o hahas
missed choir, cuz of my packing.. sorry and thanks shuwei!!
going korea tmr night. will miss all of euu here..
very scared i cant catch up..
ystd went sm house. super paiisehh! she not even awake yet!! hahas
then watch 2012 then watch a lot a lot things then we watched HAI PAI TIAN XING
gawd. im so into that show now.. hahas..
we ate a pizza each, crazy right?
and ice-cream then dinner.. oh i ate a cup of yogurt when she was eating her breakfast.
1st time. super weird, but sour so nice. hahas.
im crazy, seriously.
type post til liddat xD
psps.. not in the mood + stomach ache.. haix..
off to the toilet! byex.

2009-11-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

3c outing was a success ;D although i had a bad day and i was super tired after every thing ended, i think it was quite well organised. thanks to all the organisers.
the practice before open house sucked, but luckily we survived the performance on sat :) though i think we got a little tongue tied on the 2nd performance, cause we did not practice before that.. but anyways it turned out ok.. the game day was also ok, because i didnt really think that they enjoyed the games.. at least a minority didnt, so was a little disappointed. but well, i did my best and i believe most of them had fun so i was happy :) i slept 12 hours today, from last night because i was super tired after all the running here and there. today, didnt even had time for homework, because pei-ed my dad go practise his bowling.. out for the afternoon and was blogging all the way til now. had to go bathe alread, so i make this a brief one. really hope i could go out with bof more often, as well as... anyways, hope my upcoming organising will be a success. photos will be uploaded next time. ttfn.. byex.

5TH POST - missing..

2009-10-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

i dont know why do i have the urge to post since nothing much have happened.
i guess its the influence of reading the others blogs. been to peoples blog today and was very shocked to see some of their posts. i felt so.. weird.. i mean confused of my feelings. because they don't seem what they seem to be.. its the second last day of official school. because tomorrow will be the last day as we will get back our report book and the upcoming two weeks will be our extended programme. i dont know why i have a bad feeling. i feel so NOT uptight about the upcoming Os. i dont know why. and i still cant find my passion for moving on. how? i really felt like giving up everything. wishing 1jan2010 will be the end of the world. but at the same time, i felt so unwilling to let go.. unwillingly to give up all that i have after so many years of education etc. what is happening to me mans?? all the emotions of leaving one another is back to me. again.

i guess watching last the eps of the first seasons and the last of mofanbangbangtang wasnt such a good idea. hahas. cause i cried like mad while watching them cry. it reminds me of my friends leaving me. how i wish friendships really do never end. as in keep all our friendships as close as possible and never let go. but its like the theory of the kite. when you pull it too tightly, it will snap and lose you forever. but letting myself lose and cry out subconciously, is actually a good thing. all the bad feelings and those that i kept in my mind and heart seemed to flow away with the tears so i was glad ;)

memories flash back when i watch them giving their closure speech. all that they have been through together like what our class have been through together. i bet next year will be a total different year for all of us. a difficult one. and if we are gonna remain the status quo, i guess it wont be of much help to our results. cause seriously speaking, i dont like my class the way it is now. how i admire people who have super good classes. i shallnt name who but i really admire them. a united class is a memorable one. i dont know what am i thinking or saying oe even what am i doing now cause i feel so giddy. deep in thoughts of the class. i will miss the good old times. because i believe next year would be a rough patch and i hope our friendship never ends.

i have missed..
i am missing..
i will be missing..

when can this feeling ever stop? haiz...

2009-10-27T21:25:00.000+08:00

replies to tags ;D

shuwei- HAHAS!! ;D
wanling- yeah, i did ;D thanks so much ;)
liyun- sms-ed you lerhs :))
valecia- re-linked lerhs :))
vivian- hahas. talked to you about this topic le. its ok de. just be careful because everyone has access to the web and your blog...

wow, it has been quite some time before i am typing again. hahas..
had quite a fun day today and yesterday.

lets start from yesterday, where i rejected B.O.F appointment to attend the councillor forum + games. luckily i didn't regret it ;D had a lot of fun. of course, not to mention the bonus that my group won the first in captains' ball and second in the second game which i don't know what is it called, sorry. i very proud of my group sia :D they very enthu, so we had a lot of fun :) my group, group 8, consisted of me, jaslin, valerie, jazin, huiling, cheryl, joey, qingyu, abigail, alicia. good teamwork mates! :) hope to group wth you guys again ;D then the forum, had some talk, which was about "aspire, on fire and inspire" i guess thats all i can remember.. oh and the spiderman movie.. the tea and networking session. that was a failure i guess. the other groups were so hyper but our room was so cold T.T sad la. sad that we didn't take the initiative and interact :( and the time was short lorhs... anyways, then we have the forum where we could speak and Travis once again, did our school proud :D hahas. he mentioned questions which we all never think of and we all really think he should join debate. everyone, including the teachers in other schools was shocked to hear that he was only from sec 2. hahas.. other than that, i think nothing much.. i was in the yellow group basically, and i know my members ok! hahas.. er... from nchs we have azizah, wanling, abigail, verna, jieting, jerilene, travis, claris then we have jaslin and faye from compassvale and nur shafika (sorry i don't know how to spell her name) from greendale and the other four guys, i guess they are from maris stella, namely randy, japson, chun jing and the guy whose name could not be pronounced properly by us xD vlad..... sorry pal, i really dont know how to spell your name.. hahas... oh oh oh oh oh!!!! and not forgetting, the sec ones fa-ing hua chi xD shalln't mention names.. see i so nice.. but they should know who they are la xD hahas.

today, morning gave my mom her present cause today her birthday, same as eugenia, then she was like where you got money huh? in the most sweetest voice i have ever heard.. seriously.. then i replied i collect de lorh, then she was like so happy and even boast to my dad, see i birthday got present leh, then my dad just turned around to say, happy birthday ah.. i was like laughing~~ hahas! then in school, role call, was given the role of flag =.= somemore my most dreaded. the shhk flag. dropped once, now still got memory sia T.T then gave eugenia her present. then boring lessons. then after cme, we were informed that we were going on a learning journey with ms pey as our in charge. at first really very sian cause we sorta last min than know have this trip, thought i would rather go home sleep but it turn out great in the end. the experience for the movie made me super shocked but i enjoyed it :D very enriching cause i don't think i will ever know there is this place if the school never brought us there. hahas. hm, nothing much. just feeling apologetic towards yunyun cause she had to go home herself as my family went out to eat dinner to "celebrate". thats about it.. but just that just now my mom came in to like say so xintong i feel like bashing her up, cant she just pamper herself for once? of course, i know its for our good but its very irritating to bear with her naggings sia.. today i ren. cause her birthday. even when i feel tired i also smile. act like super nice, but haix, my dad never help out.. family matters.. nevermind.. but just to say that i am so fed up la!! :((

overall, i guess everythings going smoothly... i hope.... some pictures to enjoy :)

~you girls are LOVED :))

2009-10-23T19:16:00.000+08:00

I've grown up!! hahas..
collected my NRIC today and my mother says i look not like me =.= LOL
oh and i am super hyper cause mdm siak told me i am promoted!!
OMG!! hahas... i passed my english eh!! woohoo!! ;D
but all the results are not out yet.. have to wait for next week.
so sian.. still need go back to school for extended programme.. haix..
then still got extra activities.. cca.. and homework..
plus still want to enjoy abit, if not next year.. haix T.T
i really need to learn how to manage my time le la..
like now, wasting my time away is so not a good idea xD LOL
hmm, have to go eat finish my nata de coco before my sister pours it off the table xD
see ya soon :)

the past few days..

2009-10-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

1st things first, lemme reply to the tags, because i felt that i was very rude not to reply. sorry.
(because its a new blog, i reply all the way down to previous tags, just in case you didn't see my tag in return and i changed my blog)

replies to tags:
jingyi- LINK-ED ;DDD
catherine- heys there junior! sorry for the super late reply.
trecia- check-ed out. i guess we have the same designer? xD sorry for the super late reply.
yanting- thanks sooo much! sorry for the super late reply.
vivian- thanks sooo much! sorry for the super late reply.
wilbert- u super lame sia
chiling- thanks so much! sorry for the super late reply.
jingsi- its ok. hahas. heys, i am looking forward to your plans.. plan leh plan leh. sorry for the super late reply.
erica- thanks for tagging ;D sorry for the super late reply.
vivian- oh i see. its ok. sorry for the super late reply.
wanling- referring to that day's yesterday, yupps! ;) sorry for the super late reply.
joyceong & joey & liyun & nickson & weibin & valecia- LINK-ED / RE-LINK-ED xD
valecia- no problems. glad to know you are recovering well ;D
eugenia: thanks for tagging!! ;D sorry for the super late reply.
wanling: love you too ;D

any idea why i can sleep so late?
because there is no school tomorrow!! wahahaha.. LOL.
hmm, i have 5 days break from school, before my doomsday start, as wednesday is the day i start getting back my papers full of red marks. haix. i totllay have confidence in them as i mention to all my peers. TOTALLY CONFIDENT of FAILING xD

well, fri was the bio paper so we did not have to attend school, weekends needless to say, mon is the holiday in-lieu for deepavali on sat and tues is the marking day.. so i have two more days to slack. have been wasting my time these few days.. because exams are over and i feel so empty XD crazy issnt it? hahas.

lemme start my day on fri, where i had a whale of fantastic time with my girlfriends at kbox @ hougang plaza. meeting time was 10.30 but somehow liyun and i reached at 10. i guess we were being used to too early.. either to school or meetings xD but its a good thing right?! ;D then we shopped a little around hougang mall, where we saw shaw en, joey and a few others in KFC while all the shops are still not open -.- and of course, we talked a while, before meeting jingru, who was late by 3 mins (LOL) yet she thought she was super late. hahas. then jieyi took the next train after jingru sms-ed us to apologise as she was late so we decided to set off for kbox 1st as we expected quite a queue, so well, its good to be kiasu cause as we expected, there were a number of people waiting for kbox to open. but well, we were the 1st!! hahas. jieyi caught up with us when we were waiting for the lift ;D then we went up. kbox wasnt open, and i needed the toilet, so i dragged them to the toilet with me as it was a bit creepy (too quiet le la!) however i was so sorry as the toilet had a super strong smoke smell. so they waited outside for me then we went outside kbox to wait. while waiting we chatted on quite some topics and finally after some time, 11++ they opened and we were the 1st to go in. HAHAS!! was appointed to room 53 and the waitress came in to serve ask, asking our preferances for drinks and lunch. 3 of us took chicken chop while jieyi took teriyaki chicken. beverages for us was limited. cause we weren't 18 yet and couldnt take alcohol, so i chose a hot milo, and i forgot about the others.. whoops.. hahas.. only remember jingru ordered a hot drink and the other two had chilled drinks. then we spend around 30mins choosing songs as the controller was super hard to operate then we started singing. there were only two mikes so we had to take turns but it was ok. most of the times was jieyi and liyun singing or not it was me and jingru. of course, i sang with jieyi and liyun for a few times :) we were super high la!! but it was super cold too. i guess shehwa and wanling made the right choice not to go as they were sick. but so sad la, we could high together de lorh! :( anyways, i guess we could go again during the december break? :D it was super fun la! :) enjoyed myself super much and i guess the rest too because all of us left happily :) then we went to the shop where there are super cheap yet nice stuff, just downstairs of kbox. and jingru bought a bear + a notebook for liyun as her birthday present. after that we went to the newly opened ntuc where lye-sao appeared and started to bring us around. SUPER FUNNY!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAS... (inside joke) ah well, jingru and liyun bought chips and we went to hougang mall upstairs the open air there to eat. we met PG and mandy's group too! seems like hougang mall is quite popular issnt it? hahas. then we went to take neoprints at timezone but i tell you guys, you shouldnt take it there. the decorating time is super fast and i regretted on insisted on taking. im sorry girls T.T maybe i bear the cost of the neoprints ba. my fault to cause you to owe me money.. sorry.. anyways, after that we parted ways as jieyi and jingru took the mrt home and liyun and i took bus 62 home after buying a carrot cake from old chang kee.

day 2 of slacking, asked liyun to come my house as i wanted to give her present. well, it was partially true la, cause there were activities that was unknown to her. that was because wanling, shehwa and jialin came my house to celebrate for her!! hahas, my house was empty, except that for the last 1h30mins, my dad came back to sleep. heck caring that we went crazy playing pictionary and singing the birthday song for liyun, even digging out all my stuff toys to drown her in my sister's "boat" SUPER FUNNY!! LOLs. sadly jingru cant come out liaos and jieyi had some family outing.. so ya, just the few of us, yet we had a lot of fun!! very happy that jialin rushed here after her track and shehwa and wanling came despite their parents don't allow cause they were sick. i had a n heart attack when shehwa's dad called me to ask if the celebration ended. and liyun's mother to call me. i went OMG why did their parents have my HP number. HAHAS. then after that wanling and shehwa left, leaving me jialin and liyun to talk talk. at first, liyun was eating the cake and jialin was being childish. hahas. (shallnt betray her and say out the details. hahas) but she was super adorable :D then we had a session of "talking" well, details will not be said as they are pivate and confidantial. then i receied a call from shehwa to complain about the auntie at the bread stall. LONG STORY. but in conclusion, she was bad. then erm, wanling wanted to ask my dad if he can send her home but i sort of rejected because my dad's sleeping and he won't want to drive her home (after much experience) cause she was feeling dizzy. I AM SO SORRY WANLING. then she went compass with shehwa and got yeehang to accompany her back home, i guess. THANKS YEEHANG for pei-ing her on behalf of us. then liyun went home and jialin and i took 62 to go hougang. jialin even pei me to take 147 for 1 stop before parting ways to send me off to my granmdma's. THANKS JIALIN. then when i reached my grandma's, there was nothing to do, no television programmes nice to watch, so i slept. hahas. somehow my handphone went crazy and there was no network connection. after i came home, watch bof while i changed phone and i was bombarded with messages XD haix my phone spoilt :(( anyways, BOF IS ENDING NEXT WEEK!!! from 9-9.30pm. people, be sure to catch it!! sms dorisa and liyun throughout the show, chatting on the plot with liyun. hahas... and dorisa booked my cd cause she didnt watch the past few ep xD hahas.. then i slept..

day 3, today. woke up at 9 and went to pray today. cause today is chu yi of the nineth month. then ate free beehoon and curry at the temple as lunch. then went to east point to repair my phone and went back home. slept for 2hrs (thats why i cant sleep even til now) hahas. and went to my grandma's. went out to heartland mall with my cousins, teng ann, theng hiang and chun hsin to buy stuff from cold storage. LOL. at first when up to comics connection but cant find what chun hsin wanted so we left for cupwalker. bought a few cups after a long tme of deciding, since there was a long queue, then we went to buy the drinks, as we were celebrating chun hsin and theng hang's birthday on 21 and 22 oct respectively.. then went home, feeling full after drinking half a cup of chocolate ice blend which tasted like coffee ice blend, but nevermind, i ate some sauaages, satay, chicken wings and blah blah.. then in the night also ate two pieces of cake which was very fattening xD a cheese with tiramisu and chocolate cream cake. it was nice but very.. no SUPER de SWEET.. hahas. and my sis ate two pieces. didnt manage to understand how she did that.. LOL

woah its 12.30am now. GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!! hahas. its the start of my 4th day of slacking. cause i don't have plans for these two days. at first wanted to visit minds cafe with bof on tues, which means is tomorrow, but, well, all of them dont seem free, so it was cancelled sadly T.T haix.. i guess i am going to sleep after downloading some themes now. cause i have said all that i want to say.. hahas... good nights everyone.. oh no, i mean GOOD MORNING!! pictures will be uploaded some time later, since i am not so interested in online-ing anymore :(

lastly, i wanna add :

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIYUN!! :DDD

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO CHUNHSIN!! ;DDD

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO THENGHIANG! ;DDD

byex.

a brand new start...

2009-10-04T17:04:00.000+08:00

hellos everyone!
i am still wondering how to start my post...
hmm, i know some must be wondering why i re-newed my blog right? hahas..
well, i feel that its sort of messy and stuff, but don't worry, my older blog is not deleted.. just.. underwraps. it keeps good memories you know ((: i have been using that blog for at least 3 years. its time to get a new one and refresh it. so instead of naming it the 300+++ post, this will be my 1st ever post in my new blog. WOOHOO! ;D hahas.
i guess i have lost the interest in blogging these days, so i wouldn't be here, unless i have something to share.. oh and yes i do.. well, we did a ward visit at bright vision hospital like a month ago, and i realise that 人是不可预测下一秒会发生什么事的, so we have to cherish every moment of our lives. we have to be contented that we are healthy and can be able to move about as our wishes. there are so many people being more unfortunate than us in this world, so people,
DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY!!! ;DDD

i know i should be mugging hard for my end-year paper and stuff, so i shall make this a quick one.. though i don't think i'll be mugging after this xP

have been thinking through alot of things lately and i somehow realise i have to be optimistic..
笑是一天, 哭也是一天, 那不如开开心心地过每一天? (: 所谓船到桥头自然直, when there's a will, there's a way. whats there so much to worry about? ;D

but i am still wondering what is wrong with me.. i know i am contridicting myself above but i cant help it... because lately i have not been feeling so good. as in emotionally and mentally. always having a black face and all.. its not the normal me.. though i appeared to be.. if you think i am normal, you are just not knowing me well enough. well, fortunately, i have a group of friends who were there for me to pour out my feelings. though some have drift apart, i know they will always be there for me when i need them (: i just know that they are reliable and will always be there for me.. just like what my blogskin says. i really trully understand now that putting on a fake front is so... uncomfortable and disgusting. how i wish i could slap myself for my good acting... should i tell them the truth and the fact that i don't like them acting this way? i know i have to be considerate, and i know i need to believe in something in order for it to come true isn't that right? i should have close one eye and bear with it right? i know we are both in the wrong but why is it that everytime it must be me to apologise? i hate it.. i don't believe you don't know or what, just that you act as if you didn't know. it is seriously 讨人厌 do you know that?